Prison Dreams
May 7, 2008 by reallifeinsc
Okay, so I’m not posting what I started yesterday, but I just have to get this off my mind, and I’m hoping you can help! I’ve had two dreams in the last four days of being sent to prison…Here’s a brief description of each:
Saturday night I dreamt that I was in prison and 7 months pregnant. (I currently am 7 months pregnant). I don’t know why I was there, but I was trying desperately to get out early. I was told I was sentenced there for 9 years.
I was in this special rehabilitation program that required me to do something for the community too, so I developed this youth soccer program where the inmates helped coach and mentor underprivileged children. It became a huge success/event where the city supported it and they had fire trucks and police cars and everything at the opening ceremony. Also, Scott and my grandpa were there at the ceremony to visit/support me.
But they still weren’t going to let me out after that. I did everything I could to prove to them that I wasn’t evil and went through all the appropriate personnel to try to get out early, but one woman told me that I wasn’t even up for a hearing for another several (maybe 9?) months. I remember freaking out and crying at the fact that I couldn’t get anyone to even consider letting me out early, thinking about how I couldn’t possibly have my baby in prison! I wasn’t even sure if they were going to let me keep my baby or take it from me after giving birth! It was the most aweful feeling ever!
Last night’s prison dream I was actually sent to this cave after killing another woman with acid. I remember squirting this acid-like stuff from a pen and laughing. I don’t know if I thought it was just a joke, or maybe ink, but then the acid began eating away at the woman and killed her. She had two teenage sons.
So I was escorted to this cave. I passed by several “cave rooms” with sheets covering the doorway. All the other inmates were women and there were several small dogs and cats there too in order to keep the inmates company. Some of the rooms in the cave were dark rooms designated for solitary confinement. I was afraid they were going to send me to one of those rooms, but they continued to escort me deeper into the cave and I remember being thankful for passing by those rooms. I was ushered to a cave room with two other women who were in the middle of a counseling session. I was told these two women were going to be my roommates.
I knew my time in these dark caves (there was some light, but not the natural sunlight I really enjoy!) were going to eventually drive me crazy, with only an hour or two of outdoor time per day. But I knew I was going to be there for a while, so I figured out how to try to cope and not be completely miserable!
So…any ideas or input on what it all could mean?
Well two thoughts immediately came to mind. The first, do you feel like your life right now is a prison?
Second dream, often times throughout the bible (i know you know this I am just reminding) God would call His children to dark lonely places like a cave with King David, or Paul He called him away for 13 years before he began preaching, or like Moses who he called to the dessert with a foreign people, or like Joseph who was sold into slavery and then went to prison. Anyways, it sounds like to me you are in this season where God has called you away from everything that is familiar, pleasant, comforting, easy, for the purpose of preparing you for ministry. You and Scott had some beautiful prophetic words spoken over your marriage ten years ago….it seems to me that the dream is maybe how you feel and what season the Lord has you in. It is a testing time.
And just remember, God never tests us to see what we have inside us….he already knows. He’s only allowing us to know it too. And it’s a good thing. You’re going to discover the things to hold on to, and the things to let go of. And you’ll learn more about trusting than you ever thought even possible!
Hope I didn’t say too much. I am praying for you! You are on my heart and mind continuously!
I agree with michelle77.
also, have you been watching Prison Break, or any other Prison like shows?!? I always have similar dreams when I watch shows like that.
Praying for you!
You know how I am about wanting to find out the meanings to dreams! It drives me crazy until I think I have it figured out. So, I’ve done some searching on the internet, and thought I’d throw this out and see what you think.
Being in prison many times indicates a feeling of being censored or not able to express yourself. It can also indicate the feeling that your unable to cope with circumstances.
Now, killing someone (especially someone you don’t know) often means the dreamer is letting go of old habits and attitudes in order to go on to a new stage of life.
I also read that if you dream that you are pregnant while you really are pregnant, it could represent anxieties about the pregnancy.
So, I tried to tie all this together. In reality, you are pregnant, and have indicated that you are a little anxious about the birth of this baby. During the labor and delivery process of your other children, you were basically in a position where you were not given the choice to have the babies except by c-section. (You were in prison) You have made a decision that this time you are going to try something different. You’ve let go of the “old ideas” that once you’ve had a c-section, you always will have to have c-sections. (You developed a youth soccer program, you’ve killed the woman by throwing acid on her, and even the idea that she had two kids…well, you’ve had the 2 c-sections). But…in knowing the decision that you have made for the VBAC, you don’t know for sure if it will be successful. This has to leave you feeling somewhat helpless because you really aren’t sure if the VBAC will be a success or if you will need another c-section (as in your dream you aren’t sure if they are going to let you keep the baby or give it up).
As you’ve said “But I knew I was going to be there for a while, so I figured out how to try to cope and not be completely miserable!” You’ve made a choice and decision for the VBAC, and you know the labor may take some time, and you are doing everything in your power to make this successful!
I don’t know if I’ve explained my thoughts well here, so tell me if something doesn’t make sense because in my mind this all makes perfect sense.
I love you and can’t wait to see you all!!!!!
I have no insights or hidden meanings except to say that pregnancy dreams are the most whacked out things ever. i used to dream about walking a rat on a leash.