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Wow…it’s been over a year.  I suppose I have some catching up to do! 

First things first…life has been crazy.  The adoption process has been put on hold, and Scott and I have both been stretched beyond what we can handle on our own.  I know, I know…many Christians out there say that God won’t give us more than we can handle, but I disagree…and this post here explains my thinking on this topic.  But I won’t get into this one right now…

I’ll just focus on summing up the last year:

1.  Started the adoption process.  We completed the classes, turned in all the paperwork, completed our home study, and waited for the phone call from the adoption specialist.  Instead, after finally calling the office myself and being told our file was in order (after they found it…yes, it was lost, then found), we get a letter in the mail stating that we were still missing information and needed to send it in.  Frustration settled in, I lost motivation, and didn’t even bother trying after that point, which turned out to be okay because…

2.  Scott’s sister and oldest son ended up moving in with us.  It only lasted a couple of months, and it was a very hard, trying, learning experience for us, but God has taught me so much through everything that happened and I am thankful that God knows me better than I know myself.  He knows what’s best for our entire family and I trust and am thankful that He is in control of all things…even when things don’t make sense!

3.  Scott has been working two roles (equivalent to TWO JOBS) for his company the last several months and it has been very, VERY trying and hard.  IF we’d had a child placed in our  home during all this other stuff we’ve been dealing with, we would have certainly failed.  However, God has continued to stretch, grow, and teach us through all of this…and I feel that Scott and I are closer than we’ve ever been.  He is still working both roles, but I’m confident that the company is going to finally start transitioning him off one role so we can stop living in survival mode and get back to living our lives with direction and purpose!

So…where does that leave us?  That leaves us back where we started over a year ago.   Several days ago, Scott felt that God told him that we are still supposed to adopt.  I felt the same thing, but didn’t really say anything to him until he mentioned it one night.  For me, it was just confirmation.  I don’t think it’s going to happen overnight…it may be another year before we have a child placed with us.  And I know my husband is still dealing with too much with work to pursue this, but I am going to take the first steps towards getting the ball rolling again because I know that even if I do my part, it’s still going to be a very long process! 

So I’ve found my motivation and am going to turn in the rest of that paperwork.  The state may make us start completely over at this point…and we may even decide adopting through the state isn’t the way we want to go…but for now, it’s where we are at.  Dwight is heading off to his first year of college next fall…and I don’t think we will have a child placed in our home before then.  But God’s timing is perfect and I am learning to just be patient and let God’s plan catch up with me and when I think things should happen.  So I am just going to be obedient, do what I can do, and let God do the rest.  If it all happens in three months…then okay.  If it takes 10 years, I’m okay with that too.

Trying to force things into my timing never works anyway!

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My husband left me a question on my last post, and there is my answer.  I have been so busy lately.  So busy that I haven’t taken time out to do the things I enjoy. 

But there’s always an adjustment period after bringing home a baby.  I remember when I had Madison, my blogging decreased quite a bit at first.  Eventually I was able to get back into the swing of things, then I had America!  But now that America is 6 months old (can you believe it?), I am hoping that I will be able to get back to some things I love to do! 

So blogging is one of my New Year’s resolutions.  My goal is to blog a minimum of 3 times a week and I’m setting Monday, Wednesday, and Fridays as my blogging days.  There’s just so much I’ve wished I had the time to record into words lately, but I just haven’t had/made the time. 

So tomorrow, I’ll have to post about the killer guinea pig we ended up bringing home.  And today, I’ll leave you with two crazy dreams I’ve had the last two nights. 

Tuesday night I had a dream that I discovered I was pregnant with baby number 7.  I was standing there talking to a friend when I felt it move.  I looked down and saw my belly moving and I just knew.  I rushed to a clinic and they decided to use two different types of tests to confirm my pregnancy.  I could see the results of one of the tests sitting on the counter before they even brought it back.  Two pink lines.

My first thought was, “I just knew I was going to have a fourth baby!  It was just meant to be!”

My second thought was “Oh crap!”  Because I realized that America was just 6 months old and I was already pregnant again…and I’d apparently been pregnant for a while, which meant these babies were going to be very close in age! 

Then I realized we were moving to Arkansas, so I wouldn’t get to stay with my OB here in OH.  I also knew we’d have to move in the middle of my pregnancy.  And Arkansas is not a VBAC friendly state!  So then I started stressing!  Would I have to have a C-Section?  Could I pull off a VBAC?  What about weaning America before the next baby was born.  How was I going to do all of this? 

Then I woke up and whew!  I realized it was all just a stressful dream!

Last night, I had a dream that we were sitting at home and Dwight was sitting on the couch crying over something ridiculous.  Scott and I were so fed up with his dramatic “its-all-about-me” pity parties that we told him to just go to his room.  (For some reason I keep thinking he was crying over a bowl full of cherries).  So he’s off in his room and after a while Scott and I realize he hadn’t joined us for dinner so we called him.  We decided to talk to him about his breakdown and he  had on these weird sunglasses that covered a majority of his face and behaved so strangely.

I finally told him to take off his glasses because his skin just looked weird.  It was yellowish and wrinkly and I wanted a closer look to see what was going on with him.  He refused so I grabbed his glasses and took them off.  Scott and I were taken aback when we were staring at an old man instead of our son!  

The old man turned out to be an evil kidnapper who paid off Patrick and Joshua ($75 each) to keep quiet about his scheme as he tried to pretend he was Dwight in the midst of his kidnapping scheme.  The old man began to mock us and started speaking in Chinese as he did these crazy kicks.  I guess he was trying to scare us but I wasn’t scared.  I lost it with the old man and kept yelling at him to tell me where my son was.  He would not answer and I became so angry and scared for Dwight that I started hitting and trying to hurt this man so that he would give me some sort of information. 

But finally Scott and I decided to check Dwight’s room.  Sure enough, he was sitting on his bed, waiting for us to tell him to come out.  I guess the old man had decided to try to distract us before actually kidnapping him.  The old man ran away, so my mom and I set out to tell the rest of the people in the neighborhood what was going on.  There were kids playing outside all through the neighborhood, so I kept trying to gather the parents together to tell them at once, only they were too distracted to listen to what I was saying.  I was so frustrated and irritated that they didn’t want to listen!  One man kept telling me to hold on, and as I waited at the front of his house, he kept running down the driveway to a car he was working on.  “Just let me replace this engine real quick, and then I’ll be right back,”  He said. 

 I looked at my mom.  “Did he just say he wants me to wait for him to replace the engine?”

There was also another part of my dream where I just needed to get away from everybody, but my mom knew what I was doing and wanted to talk to me.  I decided to run and try to get away from her before she could find me.  I found a secret hiding place in this house that actually led out to an over-grown garden area (weird dreams have a way of changing things up on me!) and tried hiding beneath some overgrown grass.  But she still found me.  She knew exactly where to look and I remember thinking, “That’s my mom.  She always knows just where to find me.  She knows me so well.”

So then we started walking around and we ended up with America on this weird amusement park water-type ride.  At first, America was in this carrier and the ride almost took her to the right side, or the “dangerous” side.  (The side babies were not allowed to ride on).  But my mom grabbed the carrier right in the nick of time!  So she pulled America out of the carrier and held her in her lap as we sat down and waited as we were pulled to the left on this water-type ride.  I remember worrying that it still might be dangerous for the baby, but I held on because it was already too late to turn back.   

And that was it.

Strange dreams.  Not quite sure what to make of it all, but it is somewhat funny.  Old man trying to disguise himself as a 15 year old kid.  Distracted parents, pregnancy, and water rides.  Yeah, I guess you could say my mind has been working overtime the last couple of days!

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Okay, Okay, I’ve put this off long enough.  A good while back (like months and months ago), another blogger tagged me with one of those 7 Random Things tags…and tonight is when I discovered I don’t have her on my blogroll.  Grrrrrr.  I really need to update my blogroll! 

Anyway, while catching up on my reading a couple days ago, I noticed I’ve been tagged again…with pretty much the same thing.  So I figured it was a sign.  I am destined to share 7 random facts about myself.  I know it is destined, because if it were more than 7, I wouldn’t even bother.  I just am not that creative right now!

So…here’s how it works…

Rules are:
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.                                                                                                                                                                3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

So…I’ll try, but I think I’ve pretty much already shared anything interesting about me on my blog!  Anyway, here goes:

 1.  I married my best friend’s older brother.  We didn’t officially start dating until July of 1997…but we were engaged by the end of September…and then secretly tied the knot in November, the month before our wedding!  (We did this because the Army wouldn’t move my stuff to Washington state without proof of marriage, but didn’t tell very many people because we didn’t want them to feel the wedding was any less special).

2.  I am only 15 years older than Dwight.  He will be 15 years older than this baby when he/she is born.  To think he will be the same age I was when I am giving birth to his little brother or sister is kind of…weird!

3.  I’ve moved 8 times in the last 10 years.  2 of those moves were local, but still…8 times in 10 years!  As if I don’t have enough to do! 

4.  I was convinced I was adopted when I was young (probably about 11 years old).  I remember going through my mom’s stuff in her room one day after she left the house, looking for the adoption information she was hiding from me.  I found my birth certificate, but no adoption papers.  I still wasn’t quite convinced…I thought there was some sort of conspiracy going on!

5.  I was an art student before getting married.  I was actually in the process of applying for a BFA at my school and had already been awarded a scholarship in the arts department after my first year in their department.  This was quite a big deal to me since the only other art classes I’d ever taken was during my Senior year in high school…but I was determined to follow my dream even though many adults discouraged me from going in that direction.  I’d love to get back into that one day…when I don’t have so many little kids at home!

6.  I was homeschooled from 1st thru 7th grade when my mom enrolled me into a private Christian school.  I tested so well that they let me skip the 8th grade.  So I spent my 9th and 10th grade there before I decided I despised the politics and crud going on in that place.  I told my mom that if she sent me back I’d do whatever it took to get kicked out.  (A pretty rebellious step for me!).  So she homeschooled me again as well as sent me to vocational school my Junior year before finally enrolling me into public school my senior year. 

7.  I am a day dreamer.  I guess that’s my way of escaping my crazy world!

So, there you go.  Nothing too interesting, but I did it!

Thanks for the tag, Ladies, and if you are curious as to who the bloggers are…go check out There’s A Penguin On The Telly and as for the other blog…I’m going to have to find the name/link because my pregnant brain just isn’t wanting to let me remember right now!  (If you are out there and reading this, PLEASE send me a comment or email and let me know so I can add you to my blogroll!)

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Goofball!

My son hasn’t blogged in a while, but Scott checked out his blog the other night and decided to leave him a comment on his latest post.  Dwight hasn’t even read it yet.  I guess he’s decided he’s done blogging (already?!?)  Perhaps this new comment will motivate him to write more, now that he is getting attention from historical political figures and all!  😉

Really though, In my opinion, they are both goofballs!

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Please go read my son’s post on his blog today and then tell me.  Am I brilliant, or what?  To have him blog his thoughts, oh I am already loving it!  Oh, he is just so entertaining.  He drives me crazy, never shuts up, and frustrates me to no end when he does things like, ummmmmm, never bothering to call to let me know practice time has been changed, leaving me in the parking lot with 3 kids for 40 minutes!!!  But really I get the biggest laughs out of him.  I can’t believe he’ll be graduating highschool in just 3 1/2 years.  I know once he’s moved out and on his own, I’m going to miss his presence, even though he makes me crazy with his non-stop rambling! 

Oh, and let me just post my disclaimer here.  I am not responsible for anything (and I mean ANYTHING) he blogs about. The points of view or opinions expressed on his blog do not necessarily reflect the the opinions or points of view of either parents, the church we attend, or anyone else who may in any way be related to this imaginative young man.  

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He finally started his own blog.  Oh…and I don’t know who calls him “Rambo” but apparently that is what he is going by.

Click HERE and feel free to say hi!  It will encourage him to write more if he knows he has readers, and honestly, I can’t wait to read what he writes next. 

P.S. If you haven’t read my post below, please do!  Suzy works so hard and deserves to see success in everything she pours her heart into!

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